Today, my newborn baby boy started high school. It's a little hard to imagine how he is getting from class to class, what with his being like FOUR DAYS OLD and all. But maybe someone gave him a piggy back ride? Helped him open his locker with his tiny, peeling, newborn fists?
I do hope so.
Because I'm sort of a wreck just thinking about it.
All day long, I've been chomping at the bit, anxiously awaiting his arrival home.
And, thanks to the cross country practice, he won't get here until dinner time.
By which point, I expect he's grown a full beard, has a job, and four kids of his own.
Don't mock. It feels about that long since he WAS a newborn. They always told me it would go so fast. When I had three kids under age four, I fervently hoped it was true with every fiber of my being. The days were endless, and the nights - anything but restful. It was one long sleep-deprived millennia, dotted here and there with moments that made it all worth while.
Like when they were all asleep at the same time.
But now that they're fun, interesting, and like the same movies as me? I'd sort of like time to just stand still for a moment. To freeze the laughter that fills the air like a thick fog when we watch Seinfeld re-runs together. To remember their sharp wit, and bottle up the occasional hugs from their long, gangly bodies. To hold on to them for just a little longer.
The other two were much more nonchalant as they headed out the door this morning.
The middle child is smack dab in the middle of his middle school career. He knows the ropes, he has his friends, and it's all not nearly as exciting as the 900 hours he taped for Shark Week.
But, man, do I love him something fierce.
And my baby girl. Starting what will be our final year of elementary school. She is as dramatic as she always has been. What with the ASSIGNED SEATS AT LUNCH, UGH. And actual HOMEWORK required of her. But still. I forgive her for growing up because she flies into my arms with a choking squeeze as soon as she gets off the bus. Never knowing which one of us really needs that touch more.
I think it's going to be all right.
Plus? We're now one day closer to summer vacation next year.